well lastnight i txt my ex again. we start talkin again on saturday so i guess u can say we are friends, well on my end we are lol. anyway like i said i txted her lastnight tellin her that i miss her and that i still wanna take care of her and her son which i do but i know its not gunna happen. i was thinkin about that all night last night me wanting a family and things. see im 24 and when i met this person i did care for her but i didnt want those things. i told her i didnt want no kids or anything like that. i guess u could say i was young and dum back then lol. see now that she basically opened my eyes to wantin a family and kids i dont have her. as much as i try not to think about it i cant. i guess u could say the sad thing is i know that we both care alot for each otha but she doesnt trust me cuz of the things i said in the past about kids and shit like that. hell then she slept ova and got drunk all she did was talk about how she misses me and wants me back. i kno what ur thinking people she was drunk haha but when she gets tipsy or drunk she opens up and tells how she really feels. i told her lastnight that i dont think ill truly get over her till she does get a place for her and her son. it sucks cuz if u people would see us together its like we already married lmao. oh well i have been makin sum kinda progress tho. we hardly talk now so i guess thats a good way to start gettin ova sumone. but one things for sure if i get her back im askin her to marry me lol but i know deep down inside that wont happen. well i guess thats it for today. ill keep u guys posted