ShoutPost - Bxgladiator's Blog (start of something new)

bored and lonely

2007-07-18

well im at work bored as hell. theres nothing to do here man i cant wait till 4pm comes so i can get the hell outta here lol. anyway lastnight i didnt get no sleep. thats not anything new tho its been like that for so long. i have so much on my mind that i think im gunna kill myself lol nah just playing about that last part folks. if i did that then whos gunna make you guys laugh lmao. anyway i couldnt sleep cuz i cant for the life of me get shante (my ex) outta my head. i think ive tried everything. i even tried to tell myself she doesnt care for me but nothing works. i guess im just tired of everything thats been goin on. i walk down the street and see people with there kids i think of her son. i see people kissing i think of her. i listen to music or do sumthing we used to do i think of her. i think the only thing keeping my sane is that i know shes happy but i know she can be happy wit me. i just dont know anymore. i guess i feel like this cuz its raining outside and i used to love seeing her in this weather lol anyway i feel better writing this and ill post something better later on

bxgladiator

bxgladiator (2007-07-18)
yeah i know ken isright i even sent him a message saying it lol. i guess some days are better then others. ill get over it i promise. besides im back to my old goal and thats taking kens number one spot hahahaha. gives me something to do at work hee hee

Bishop\'s Fantasy? (2007-07-18)
This is going to sound crazy, especially if you're not into the "God" thing, but go pick up the Newsboys' "Go" CD or download it and play it REAL loud. Great music, great message, and if you play it loud enough, it crowds out every other thought.

Celestia (2007-07-18)
Writing is cathartic. Keep writing and we'll keep listening. And as much as it pains me to agree with Ken (j/k honey), he's got a good point. Check it out and see what comes to pass. You never know, right? And at least there, there won't be any lap bouncing with Ken. :)

Hardcore_Pyro (2007-07-18)
We need to get you a hobby so that you can concentrate on other things and hopefully in time you'll find another honey that will float your boat. I'll tell you a secret, just between you and me. No one is listening..... I know a place just down the street from where you live that has got all kinds of sweet honey's waiting for a good man. They're looking all fine and stuff, got all them bumps in the right places and they're smart too. You wanna know where you can find them? Right in your neighborhood church. You just have to have the right kind of bait to land these fine ladies. You got a job so that will spark their interest, self confidence and the willing to put them first as well as having the good Lord in your heart. It's that easy.