hey everyone!!! im sitting here doing nothing so said why not make a blog entry lol. well today i had to work yeah it sucked but it went by pretty quick i must say. so it wasnt that bad. anyway me and shante been talkin these past few days so thats also a good thing but .......... today i told her i cant talk to her anymore so yeah we aint friends. when i talk to her i pretend to be something im not and thats a friend. everytime i talk to her my feelings come right back like we just broke up yesterday. its like my mind says just be her friend but my heart says you know better so i just said fuck it im sad when i dont talk to her and im sad when i do so its a lose lose situation. so i took the lesser road. i rather have her remember me as someone special then someone crazy lol. its sad cuz she is a wonderful person and i would do anything for her and her son but i would only do it just in hopes of getting her back and thats not right for the both of us. shes happy and thats all that matters. besides one day we'll talk again and be real friends. anyway right now im waiting on a call from someone and she better call!!!!