well its thursday!! yup another boring day at work. well alot has been happening since my last blog entry so let me get started.

first up is shante. we started talking again and now the feelings are back. today is the last draw tho. i sent her a txt saying that if she doesnt feel the same then just let me go. she told me that shes not over me but if your not over me then why dont you be with me?? anyway i dont wanna go thru this anymore with her. i dont wanna be second place to someone else. i know i should try to be her friend but i cant cause when i see her or her son i want nothing more to kiss her anyway thats enuff of that besides two things can happen with that txt. 1) shes gunna call me a asshole or 2) shes gunna not even answer it. i rather have her not txt me cuz i dont feel like reading some mean shit today lol

second up since my friends know about whats be happening with me and shante they put me on two blind dates hahaha. the first chick was crazy as hell. we went to dinner and all she talked about was her ex and how she hates men!! so after dinner i just left and the second chick was cool down to earth and very pretty but no sparks there either she a sweetheart and we still talk maybe ill give her another chance but for now i just wanna keep to myself and get over shante. dont wanna get into another relationship knowing i still have strong feelings for someone else.

thrid up my mothers been sick for along time and she told me she has cancer. yup just want i needed to hear when im already depressed but she says shes gunna be ok and keep me updated. so ill keep you guys updated with that.

well thats it for now ill keep you guys posted!!