just something about the rain makes me feel good. i like bad weather period. dont get me wrong i love the nice sunny days but theres nothing like a nice rainy day to just stay home and relax, to bad im at work . anyway hope everybodies doing ok. im sumwhat ok but thats better then being sad so ill take it lol. been searching all morning for a apt on rent.com. dont know why im even looking now since i wont move till the end of the year. moving to jerseys gunna be kinda hard cuz i dont know jersey like that and the only person helping (shante) i dont talk to anymore but il find sumone to show me the good parts of jersey.

lastnight i didnt go to sleep till late 11pm. me and shante was talking for our last time. i guess we just wanted one good convo before we parted ways. its kinda sad that i cant be her friend but i know what i want and i dont wanna settle for less. she told me she loves me and cares for me so ill leave it at that plus tj remembers who iam so im happy about that lol. speak of the devil she just txted me about her son. i think thats the only way i would ever answer back. yesterday when i saw her she told me one of her coworkers thought i was tjs dad hahaha that put  smile on my face but like barnabus said in my last post shes already starting her life so i dont wanna be the thrid wheel plus us telling each other how we feel isnt right to her bf.

anyway im off to get some lunch any ideas what to get??? oh and if anybody knows any good spots in jersey to live let me know!!!!