well i just finish reading someones post and part of it got me thinking. she was talking about being divorced and how her husband has someone new. i could kinda relate to that even tho i neva been married before. i myself lost someone i consider to this day my wife. but the part that got me thinking was her saying that she was bitter. in a way i can also relate to that. so many nights just thinking what could i have done to make things work or show that otha person that you are there for them no matter what. now after reading her blog i got the thinking am i bitter??? and yes iam. as much as i hate to admit it i still love her after 5 months of not being with her. now we werent married but she was the one i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. half of me wants everything to work out for her but the other half doesnt just so i could say told you so. yeah i know thats mean for me to say to someone i love but its true. i guess its the fact that theres another man doing everything i use to do. jealousy is something im not used to since i neva been jealous of anything but theres a first time for everything i guess lol. ok im done for now. ill keep yall posted as always