well i sent my ex a txt saying sorry for stressing her out. i kinda thought i was helping her by making her laugh and visiting her. i do wanna be there for her and tj but i guess in a why if her not talking  to me helps with her stress then im happy i can do sumthing. i told her that shes a strong woman that that no matter what happens to tj, tj will always think the same. i hope that put a smile on her face then her seeing my name pop up on her phone and getting mad. i told her that she will alway have a good friend in the bx and hope that i still got a friend in jersey. i kinda know whats gunna happen with that but i wont be mean but i kinda kno whats gunna happen. most likely ill neva see her again and if thats what life has in store for me then so be it but i hope not. she will be missed if thats the case tho. i know she read my txt she always does and i asked her if i was of to keep reading the blog just to keep updated with everything and that she can do the same. if she didnt want me reading it to send me a blank txt and i havent gotten it yet so i guess its ok. well we will see what the future holds for me and her i just hope i dont loss a good friend.