well the title says it all. this morning i got up turned my cellphone on and had a voice mail from shante. tj passed away lastnight. i dont even know how to handle this loss. i love him so much and now hes gone. i got to see him for the last time yesterday and i thank god for having the guts to ask shante if i could come and see him. he looked really bad when i got there. half of hes face was swollen really bad and he could hardly breath. i feel so guilty for not spending as much time with him when he wasnt sick. i guess thats a regret ill always have to live with. seeing shante cry yesterday was so heartbreaking. i cried when i say him yesterday but when i left i just couldnt hold it in anymore. im still crying. i lost a good friend lastnight but i know hes gunna be watching over shante. but ill make this last promise to him as long as im alive ill always watch over shante for him. i can promise him that. i txted her this morning teling her if she needs anything or just wants to meet up to talk then any place or anytime ill come. god i still cant believe his gone. i love you tj and will never forget you.