well i wasnt gunna write about this but its been in my head for so long so here we go. shante told me she cares about me and we been talking about getting back together but shes engaged to be married to sumone else. i guess you can say this is my second chance but i know at the end i dont think shes gunna pick me. deep down inside i wish she would.  today we had lunch and i had fun. i always have fun when shes around. shes gunna come over to my house on wednesday and we are gunna chill so im hoping we have fun. i know i shouldnt give up hope but i think i know whats gunna happen at the end but at least im getting a second chance to show i changed. hope she makes the right choice. ill keep you guys posted