wow i cant believe 2007 is almost done. this year went by to fast lol. anyway if i had to say anything about this year i would say it was the worst one of my life. i lost a wife ( but gained a friend ) lost a good friend to cancer ( tj ) and just havent by myself these past couple of months. on new years day i have to work so new years eve is gunna suck for me lol. no partying or drinking no ball dropping uggh i kinda sucks but i rather work anyway so its not a big deal to me. i will see shante on monday for lunch tho. our last lunch for the year. which im gunna enjoy. i love being around here. anyway heres hoping that 2008 is much better for me!!!!!. i might have a new job and a new place to live ( new jersey ) so we"ll see what happens. as for everybody on shoutpost i hope 2008 is a better year for you and ur family and as always ill keep you posted

yup another christmas is here and im spending it at work  but its ok i get paid alot to work today so its not that bad. yesterday i went to see shante and it was fun. we had lunch and exchanged gifts. she got me season one and two of bevis and butthead hahahahaha. i used to watch them when i was lil so it was funny to see she got that for me. anyway after that i hung out with some friends and that was it. couldnt really drink or party since i had work. well just wanted to wish everybody on shoutpost a merry christmas so MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i woke up and felt that today was gunna be a good day and it was. today is going by so quick that its almost 230pm and to top it all off my relief is here haha. i made over 500 in tips and i got a free bottle of black label damn im gunna get drunk this weekend!!!!! we also had a party for the workers and that was fun to. if i get this other job im really gunna miss this place. i haave alot of memories here and i would miss alot of people here just like they would miss me. well for the first time in a long time im in a good mood. well let me get back to work ill keep you posted as always  oh how can i forget i got ban for one day on my xbox live account hahaa i guess they had enuff of me making fun of this lil kids!!!!!!! hahaha ok now im done

hey everybody. im at work about to leave and felt like writing so here i go lol. today was stressful. everything that could go wrong did. i wont go into detail but  i have such a headach its not even funny. i just wanna go home and relax but after work im gunna go pick up my new tv!!! haha a 40 inch song lcd that i got on sale for cheap. thank god for black friday lol. well i got all my gifts that im gunna give out all ready. i just got shantes gift today at lunch so im gunna wrap it up tomorrow and give it to her christmas eve. i kinda cant wait cuz i love christmas eve but hate christmas day hmmm now that i think about it thats kinda strange o well. anyway let me get off. ill keep you guys posted

to visit tjs grave on monday morning!!! me and my friend are gunna go well hes gunna take me but he wants to pay his respects to. so its offical now. i have to go. i been thinking of what im gunna say and i have no clue but ill think of sumthing. im kinda scared of going cuz i dont wanna start crying or feel like shit cuz i really miss him. not even shante knows this but this week after work i went to the hospital he was in. i didnt go in tho but i took the trip there and just stared at the hospital. you dont kno how bad i wish tj was inside so i can go to the fifth floor and say hello. after standing there for awhile i started thinking about him and shante and myself. leaving the hospital to go home was the saddest thing i had to do. as i right this i think i know what im gunna tell him when i visit him on monday. im gunna get everything off my chest so i dont have anymore regrets. im gunna ask him for his forgiveness and hope one day when i see him again i can get his answer

after that me and my friend gunna go christmas shopping in the city. really only shopping for shante tho. she already knows what shes gunna get but i might get her sumthing else. she told em she got me sumthing yesterday so kinda excited to see what it is hahaha i guess im still a kid at heart. my boss came today and told me that very soon im gunna have to go for my interview im also excited about that. plz god the only thing i want is this job!!!!!! lmao. anyway thats about everything that goes on in my life as of now. im prayin after monday i can finally let go of the past and move forward into the future we shall see. anyway ill keep yall posted