yay!!!!! i just got a call for my second interview!!! its on thursday. im one step closer to leaving this place and start sumthing good. i hope they can tell me when the building opens up so i can start looking for a apt. anyway monday i want to see shante so we can chill. we went to the mall to see sum ferret and yamil was there. it was kinda arkward having him there but for once i wasnt mad even when  i saw them  kiss. im not going lie i didnt wanna see that but i didnt get mad either so i guess im getting over her but that dont me im tryin to be his friend fuck that. anyway after that we had lunch and i left back home. shes gunna get me lunch on monday. yes folks u heard right SHES buying me lunch for once heee heeee haha. i wasnt gunna go cuz on monday thats when she gets married from what she told me but how can i pass up a free lunch so im going hahaha. anyway wish me luck on the second interview people. oh and she got tay ( my ferret ) a toy and tay loves it haha she played with it all night yesterday she even slept with it. ok now ill keep yall posted

yuppers im at work tired as fuck man. i havent slept good in 2 days but tonight im gunna go to sleep early no matter what cuz i cant go another day of not getting any sleep. on another note i got my schedule for my other job. ill be working sundays - thursdays 12 in the afternoon to 8pm hee hee!! i love that schedule cuz im not a morning person at all. i hate waking up early man, now i can sleep till 8 in the morning haha. i did my taxs this week and im gettin close to thousand bucks back so thats a good thing more money for my own place lol. speaking of my own place i havent even started lookin cuz they havent told me when the building is supposed to open guess ill just continue to save. i was suppose to get a call this week but didnt so im hoping by next week ill know sumthing. this monday i think me and shante are gunna go to lunch. i say i think cuz we havent been talkin that much. i txt her and we start to talk but then she get quite so i just leave her alone. i hope everything is alright with her tho. we gunna go to the mall and get tay ( my ferret ) some things plus she got tay a toy so have to pick that up also. other then, thats been it. as always ill keep you posted

yuppers im 25 years old. god im old haha. well todays my birthday and im not gunna do anything.im to tired and im alil sick so dont really feel like doing anything. so far today is pretty good i came to work and guess what i got a raise hahah yup so i guess thats my birthday present from my job plus todays is going by kinda fast so thats always a good thing. well thats about it still alil stress about certain things that im not gunna write about but im just taking that one day at a time. well im off ill keep you guys posted

yeah at the end she chose yamil. they are going to get married on march 3rd. even tho i know she was gunna chose him it still kinda hurts. but it was fun hearing that she stilled cared about me.i could sit here and write how pissed iam but that wont sovle anything. i guess i got my second chance and it wasnt good enuff so no regrets. i still love her and hope the best. see im not such a bad guy lol anyway wanted to share that with you guys so ill keep you posted 

well i wasnt gunna write about this but its been in my head for so long so here we go. shante told me she cares about me and we been talking about getting back together but shes engaged to be married to sumone else. i guess you can say this is my second chance but i know at the end i dont think shes gunna pick me. deep down inside i wish she would.  today we had lunch and i had fun. i always have fun when shes around. shes gunna come over to my house on wednesday and we are gunna chill so im hoping we have fun. i know i shouldnt give up hope but i think i know whats gunna happen at the end but at least im getting a second chance to show i changed. hope she makes the right choice. ill keep you guys posted